MIA Like Always. HUUGEE UPDATE!!

Wow. Im not even sure where to start! Well, Ill start from where I left off. Sooo, after you read how I was mourning the loss of Lucy, aka my laptop, turns out that instead of getting a sweet 16 for my birthday, Im getting a laptop! Which Im completely happy with!! :DDD Im so excited, I should be getting it by the end of this month. So I wont get in depth with this AT ALL but that friend I use to talk about all the time on here, yeahhh, well we're not really friends after a... conflict between us. I guess she thought Id be forgiving. But Im not. Which is kind of weird, because even Ill admit that Im a super nice person but if you screw something up thats important to me, then its over. I hold grudges and Im not ashamed of it. Although I will admit I was looking at our past conversations and its just really sad to think our friendship took a turn for the worst. If youre wondering "will you ever talk to her again?" the answer is: I dont know. Im not concerned about that right now but if I give it time, like maybe a years worth, then we'll see where it goes. We did leave on a civil note so that was good. Four years ago I was good friends with this guy and then he did something stupid to me and I didnt talk to him until two weeks ago. Mainly because we were put in the same study group in history, but that's still a 4 whopping years. Its funny though because now we're super nice to each other, but Im telling you, I don't mess around. I take it for what it is and walk away. Anyway, I became even better friends with one of her good friends named Blake. Hes the most cutest blonde guy you'll ever come across with a personality that captures you the moment you shake hands- literally. I actually met him 3 years ago at her birthday party and we exchanged numbers and ended up hanging out a few times. We kinda faded and talked on and off for the next two years but then when we saw each other over the summer of 010, we started texting and ever since the conflict between her & I he's been there for me and we hang out even more. Theres too many things to name about Blake but one thing I live for about him is his stories. MY GOODNESS. Just one story and you will seriously be on the ground DYING. Heres a picture of Blake and I during September when we just started getting closer!


And then I invited him to a charity event the following week that my friends mom hosts every year and she needs waiters so Him, I, and two of my good friends Reeanna and Eanna came out to help.
During the whole conflict between that friend and I, Reeanna & Eanna were the two friends who were there for me, listened to my venting, and gave me advice when I needed it most. Words will never ever describe how thankful I am for these girls <3 Ive known Reeanna since the sixth grade from our English class (aweee) and Eanna since freshman year when we sat next to each other in geometry. And then we all ended up playing golf together in 2009 and it was one of the greatest experiences that I could ask for. Not the golf part (it was a good experience but not the absolute greatest thing) but just being able to be with them and let our friendship become even closer. Reeanna and Eanna are extremely sarcastic w/ each other and its beyond entertaining to watch. Hahaha, Im the middle ground of the two but we all get along like the 3 musketeers! Im going to be so depressed when Eanna moves for college :/ Heres a picture of the three of us! I adore these lovely ladies <3

And then here is a picture of Blake and I and Brianna at the event, he thought he was overdressed when really I was just underdressed. I always dress up to this even but for some reason this year I was like, ehhhh, Ill just rock the black skinny jeans, V neck, and vans ;) Excuse the sweatyness, after we serve all the food and all the announcements are done we're allowed to go dance on the dance floor :D But for the most part Blake was seriously KILLING me and Brianna the whole entire times with his hilarious stories. And while we were dancing he pulled me aside and excitedly said "OHMYGOD. I just had the greatest idea ever. Im going to go to your homecoming!!" So he basically invited himself- but I probably would have asked him anyway. And the idea seemed beyond amazing. I would love to see him get down at my schools homecoming! (We go to different schools, just an FYI)


So the following week, one of the friends I met for the second time of the girl I dont talk to anymore was at the party and her and I just clicked. Her name is Kayla and she stayed with me practically the whole entire night and comforted me because I felt like shit the whole night. Shes a super sweet girl and also naturally gorgeous. Well, I told her that for her senior pictures that I will do her makeup for her because Im a pro at makeup and makeup consumes my mind about 99 % of the time ;)
But she was so excited for the idea and we set up a date. But then the week after the benefit dinner, she texted me and asked if I wanted to come with her and her parents to a hotel (within my area) and do her moms makeup because there was a party hosted at the hotel and it was fancy schmancy so of course I said yes! But it was kind of weird because it was only the third time we met- yet we were having a sleepover. Strange, but it felt like I knew her forever. So I was comfortable. And her parents seemed to like me a lot as I adored them. Haha, her dad was like "You really need to meet my son Tony." ;DD Bahahaha, and her mom ended up LOVING her makeup which made me of course very very happy. So Kayla and I ended up going to the mall across the street (AND SHE DROVE THE HUMMER, MIND YOU SHES LIKE 100 POUNDS!!) and got dinner, went back to the hotel, went to the jacuzzi, went back to the room, talked and played with makeup, and then afterwards we crashed her dads companies party x) It was such a fun night!


And then the next day I ended up going to the mall with Blake so we could go shopping for his senior portrait shirt and needless to say... he went a little out of control with his wallet. I did too, I wont deny it, but I did waay less damage then he did. But we couldnt help it! Haha, its a lot of fun shopping with Blake.

Oh! And as for my school life- I got a 4.1 on my last progress report which Im SOOOOO proud of myself for. Ive also been hanging out with a sweet sweet girl named Bahar at lunch in our journalism room and her and I just get along so easily! At first, I never really associated myself with her cause she seemed quiet and shy, but when the girl who sat next to her was out for a week due to illness, we began talking, then going on our campus adventures (with journalism, if you have the sticker your free to pull people out of class for an interview or just roam the school to get what you need done) and then it just kind of built on from there. Shes extremely funny and I love how calm and collected she is. Soo Im really glad that Ive come across such an amazingly good friend <33 I also got the role of the makeup artist for my school play which is happening this week so Im super excited! I get to miss class and I actually feel like Im semi apart of such an awesome production! And my good friend Megan is one of the main actresses for this play (its called "And then they Came for Me" The life of Anne Frank) so Im so stoked to be able to work with her. My sisters are really proud of me and how well Ive been doing this school year. But Im telling you now that I had to work really hard to get where I am. I actually had a C in honors US History, but I was 1% away from a B and had to compromise with my history teacher and doing anything thing I could to get my grade to that 80.9 I have right now. And I did it. Within one day. May not impress you but I was so happy when I accomplished in doing so.
So now fast forwarding to homecoming. I got ready at around four, Reeanna came over to get her makeup done, and then I had thirty minutes before Blake came so I was scrambling all over the place. ON TOP OF THAT, my group of friends (aka the asian group) bailed last minute of our plan of meeting up for a quick dinner so I was beyond pissed. And when Blake came, I had rushed out of the house with no necklace, and only one earring in and I forgot to fill in my brows -____- So we ended up going to dinner by ourselves and we went to a Pho place we discovered by fate in a little plaza and it was the most randomest thing in the world but it was also very good and a satisfied meal. I need Blake to come eat some of my mothers homemade pho though! Haha, and then afterward we went to starbucks to get his quick fix of coffee because he had to be extra alert at the dance and then we went to Rite Aid so I could buy (you guessed it) an eyebrow pencil and some cheap necklace LOL. And then we headed down to my school, got into the dance, and the DJ was LAME. Goodness, who plays a song three times????? It was horrible. But Blake and I tried to make the most of it and danced. And then we saw Bahar and her group of friends and we ended up taking our professional homecoming picture with them cause the asians were procrastinating. The photographer told Blake, "Woahh you are one lucky guy!" LOL. With four girls and 1 guy- go figure ;)
And then theres this one guy that I think is reeeeeaaaaaalllllly cute so I took a picture with him which I wont post because I don't want to... well I do, but I know that I shouldnt. Anywho, I told him, "You and I are going to dance later." And he was like "Oh of course!" And so two hours into the dance I know my time is running out. And Blake tried getting me to dance with him like four times but I kept making excuses and backing out. Finally, Blake had enough and was verbally forcing me to go ask him to dance after we spent 5 minutes searching for him on the dance floor (im not a stalker I swear!) and he was talking with one of his friends so at least he wasnt dancing with some girl cause that would just be rude if I just cut in. So after quick words of motivation from Blake and him walking away and leaving me to fend for myself, I walk up to him and said, "you and I, lets go." and he smiled (gahhh he has a killer smile) and I took him hand and led him to some spot on the dance floor. Let me tell you, he may be one year younger than me but he could really dance. And ahhhh it was just like, cloud nine for me. Haha, his hands were at my waist and then all of a sudden he let go and I lost my rhythem for a moment and thought "what the hell did I do D:" but then he placed his hands back on my waist and was like "sorry about that, my teacher said she'll pull anyone dancing too "inappropriately" (heh) into the time out room. YES we have a time out room for anyone who gets down a little *too* much. So we danced for about two songs and then my legs were giving out so I that ended one of the highlight of my nights. Sighhhh. Ahhh Im so happy Blake pushed me to dance w/ him, or else Id be having a lot of regrets. But anywho, Blake and i hit the dance floor again and then after homecoming we went to Dennys with Stephanie, Jacob, Nick, Jenny, Blake, and I. So no one was really talking so I say, "Blake, tell them some stories." and I kid you not, for the next hour in a half Blake is making every single of us DIEEE laughing at every single story he told. Just his expression and tone and how lively he makes his stories are soo hysterical. It got so funny that Nick was crying , blood shot eyes and everything. And then he did his gerber baby face thats freaking legendary and everyone just could not. stop. laughing. That was definitely the highlight of my night. One of my friends posted a pic of all of us and her caption was "Ive never laughed that hard in my lifee" and apparently when they were on their way home they were still laughing x) Blake is such an entertainer. Goodness I adore him so much! Here are some pictures from homecoming! Theres not much, just because I didnt really take many pics ): So I apologize!

Bahar and I :) I <33 her!


Nick and I <33


And of course, my guest of honor, Blake and I :)

Hope you found this update entertaining! Thanks for reading if you did!

Gahh Im Terrible.

But I have an exscuse. My laptop, aka Lucy, broke. And if I were to explain how that happened Id be flooded in tears so lets not start on that. But yeaah, its been really hard to get on the internet without my own computer, and Im not getting a new one till senior year (Im a junior) so I honestly dont know what Im going to be doing. Right now, Im on my fathers computer due to convienent fact he is not home D: But I thought this was a good oppertunity to start writing and updating! So yes, I am terrible for not updating you all sooner, to the two people who are following me. Summer is almost over and I might as well cry. Is it weird that it bugs me when I see my FB newsfeed filled with people saying their excited for school to start because theyre sooo over Summer? Really? Is your summer THAT lame for you wanting to go back to school. I mean, my summer is no where near exciting but I certainly choose my summer over a who new school year. Sighhh. Oh well, two more years to go and Im free from highschool. I honestly think the number one thing Im looking forward to school is getting it over with. Yeaah, Im not a really big school gal. But going on to the topic of how my summer was, it was overall good! I mean, I think the number one bad thing about my summer is my laptop breaking. I cried for one week straight. I get really sad from time to time, but I just know that sometimes I gotta move on and suck it up. It just gets hard. But beside that, I went to the very famous Comic Con this summer and ontop of that went to the very VIP Showtime party on the roof top of a fancy shmancy hotel and MINGLED WITH MICHAEL C HALL AKA DEXTER!!! I think I can die happily now. It was such an awesome experience meeting him, it really was. Hes so kind and down to earth you wouldnt believe! When I asked for a hug goodbye he was like "And Ill give you a hug right back!" :DDDD <--- Im smiled like that for days. DAYS. :) Until my laptop broke 3 days later. Then you saw this on my face: D: to o_o to -___- to ); but quadruple that face to its worth sobbing hysterical cry. It was pretty bad how sad I was. Still am sad :/ Ahh enough of this debbie downer stuff. So yes, I met my fav actor of all time, my sister met the cast of her favourite show of all time (the show Castle) at Comic Con as well, since I ended up winning her a ticket :) Hmmm,I was able to hang out with Montana a lot this summer! I was super happy about that cause my worst fear is that we would fade over summer D: But we just got closer really! Since we go to different schools though it will probably be hard for us once school starts but I hate thinking that way ): Hmm, Im trying to think if there was anything else exciting but I honestly cant think of anything else besides normal things that make me happy, like watching movies, hanging out with friends and family, just normal things really. Havent gotten any new books so I need to jump on that D: My birthday is coming up on the tenth of this month (september) and Im kinda excited :) Hoping to get a barnes and noble gift card, the Mac 217, 239, and 222, and to finally start my drivers ed :/ Still havent been able to do that yet o_o And of course theres a million other things I want but Ill just have to wait till Im a billionaire. Bahah I sound so terrible and cocky right now. I hope I dont become a homeless person and jinx my future o_o Oh! I got my schedule for my classes! Im taking honors English, since Im surprisingly really good at the subject and even impress myself at times, and also honors history. I dont know why but I admire history so much. Especially the war time era, like world war 1 & 2. I just find it so fascinating and amusing. I kind of have this dream of becoming a historian one day but uhh, we'll see how that goes. Another exciting class Ill be taking in journalism :D Believe it or not I want to become a news anchor (in all seriousness) so I think this class will definitely be ideal for my college needs and experience. Hopefully I enjoy the class, cause Im really excited for this oppertunity to finally take it! I really enjoy reading and writing. And yes its compeltely ok to think Im crazy. For those of you thinking, "Why do you hate school so much if your good at these subjects?" Well, Ill tell you why. Even if you werent even wondering. I DESPISE with the passion, Math and Science. Honestly, why and what more do you need to know beyond the basics? I just find it so unnecessary that in order to fulfill a proper education you need to know slopes and reciprocals, to capacity and offspring. Honestly, my strive for my goals have nothing to do with those two subjects. Completely unnecessary in my POV but its okay if you differ. Some people were born smart. Others were, well, not. Im in that category. I have to study like no other to get something in my head. Oh, and another reason why Im not looking forward to school: I like my sleep. Lots and lots of sleep. Waking up early is like asking my to run 10 miles in five minutes. It just not possible. My sisters tell me its a nightmare waking me up. And boy do I believe it.
Sorry if this blog post seemed super long and pointless, consider this ramble and an update ;) I wish I had pictures to throw in cause you know how I love including pictures but I dont have a laptop to be uploading them too D: *tear* Im going to leave now, but I really do hope Ill be back on here soon <3
Much love, Caroline.

Im Sorry ):

I feel like I have abandoned my blog o_o I DEEPLY apologize, Ive just been VERRYY busy during the month of April and I had also found Tumblr. Another blogging site but for more of a "younger" and more "random" kindof blogging place that usually consists of asians. Haha, I fit in perfectly, dont I? Well, to be quite honest, I prefer blogspot more just because I feel more comfortable with it, and no one is reblogging my stuff. I dont know, I mean, I still like tumblr, but when I post journal entries, I feel like I should be writing those on here. Sighh, Im such a complicated person. Well, I have been doing good, for the one single person reading my blog ;) Just a little tired due to all the testing I have been doing for school o_o I need this weekend to come FASTER. I love how im saying this and yet tomorrow is Friday ;) But as of right now, I am currently learning how to play the guitar. I bought this guitar guide CD thing that you just place in your PC and it'll show you the steps at your own pace. Ill be completley honest, I STILL DONT UNDERSTAND HOW TO PLAY MY GUITAR! Im on unit three and I feel like I just skipped two units o_o I dont understand what I just read, basically. Which is no bueno. But Im trying. I really really REALLLY want to learn because I just... I mean, Ive had a guitar for 7 months now, and i dont know a single thing about it. My guitar deserves a bit more love. ive basically abandoned it, as it had sat in my closet for the past three months o_o
Anywhooo, over the month of April I got really close to my good friend Montana, which is really good! We went to LA together and had a lot of fun because we went to go see Joseph Vincent, a youtube star shes in love with, perform live, and she had seen him the week before and when we went to go meet him, he REMEMBERED her name! how awesome is that? It was really really cool, and she was over the MOON I tell you! And then the next day we went to Disney Land and had a BLAST! I had such a fun weekend with her. We went back to LA to go watch him perform again (you probably think we're stalkers, huh?) but that is A LONGG story in which Ive already typed, so Ill give you the link cause I vented to my tumblr, although I wish i would have vented here ;) carolinee08.tumblr.com. Long story short, things didnt go as planned :/
Now the week is coming to the end and I can finally enjoy my weekend which I really think I deserve after all the stress Ive been. Maybe Ill even learn something from this guitar CD too. Ill definitely update :) And hopefully Ill continue posting regularly! Miss doing this and Ill write back soon!

-Caroline

Five Random Facts

Long time no post! So I thought I might just do this one :)

Fact 1. I ALWAYS have to put on my socks before jeans. Mainly because I hate the feeling of how the stitching of the jeans (At where they sinch at the end) can tickle your feet and... ughhh *shudders*. I guess its just another phobia of mine. Which leads me to fact #2.

Fact 2. I ALWAYS have to wash my feet before I go to bed. I dont know why. Its just, I cant stand the fact of dirty feet all up in my covers. I especially hate it when my friends come over and they wearing sandal or flats and then they put their feet on my bed. It just grosses me out, but I never say anything about it, because, well, thats just rude. But I immediatley wash my sheets when they leave because I can stand the fact my sheets have been touched with dirty feet. I guess its a part of my OCD. I dont mind if theyre wearing socks though, oddly...

Fact 3. I ALWAYS email the author of a book when finishing his/her novel. Its like, a little habbit of mine, I guess you could call it. I dont know, I guess I feel like I want their intention as a reader of my oppinion on their novel. Woahh, long sentence. Haha, but you'd be surprise of how many emails Ive recieved back. Just to name a few, Ive gotten replies from Loung Ung (International Best Seller of "First they Killed My Father"), Robin Palmer ("Cindy Ella") Sarah Zarr ("Sweet Hearts") Piper Banks ("Geek High") Elizabeth Scott ("Bloom") and many others I just cant name from the top of my head. Of course Ive gotten no reply from other authors, but thats okay. I cant even imagine how busy they are.

Fact 4. I cant STAND when people dont use capital letters properly. It just arghhhhh, it aggrevates me and makes me thiink youre either too lazy to fix your grammar problems or your dont care. Which is fine by all means, its only my oppinion, but it just... I dont know. Stresses me out I guess. I swear this is a part of my OCD though. Like, for instance, when someone makes a title that goes something likes this: what makes your day.
OH MY GOODNESS. I might as well yell. Ok, maybe not THAT dramatic, but you get my point. The CORRECT way (i know you all know this, so please dont think Im giving you a grammar lesson!) is: What Makes Your Day?"
Im just weird. Really weird. And I blame it on my OCD, but hey, thats something we all have to deal with. And dont even get me started on straight lines.

Fact 5. I can rewatch a movie twenty times. No joke. IF theres a movie thats SOOOO incredibly good to a point where the movie is constantly on mind 24/7 (in other words, Im obsessing over a movie) I tend to hunt that movie down online and watch it 20 whopping times. Okay, maybe 21. Ahhhhh, just kidding, well, not really because I probably CAN, but realistically (Since I still have school work and stuff) Ill watch the movie maybe 8 times in a day, then the next day Ill watch it another 5 times, and you get my point. But this movie has to be SUPERRR good to a point where its all Im talking and thinking about. Ill list all the movies that have made me go to this point.
A Cinderella Story- I had it on DVD and litterally remembered ALL the words from that movie. I know, I know, but hey, it was a good movie.
13 going on 30- Ahhh, such good memories <3 I loved Mark Ruffalo and Jennifer Gardner together.
What a Girl Wants- One of my closest child hood friends spent litterally DAYS rewatching this super cute and funny movie. Its sooo good, and I can rewatch it another fifty times if I wanted. Amanda Bynes was GREAT in that movie, and Oliver James is just... sighhhhh. I dont even have the word. Im speechless, 'nuff said.
Pride and Prejudice- I remember watching this in 7th or 8th grade and never understood it but remember liking it. Just recently watched it in English and HOLY CROSHNOTS!! I could not get the movie out of my head ALL DAY LONG. I fell so in love with Mr. Darcy- it wasnt even funny. Whenever he and Liz had an interaction my stomached would litterally squeeze into a tight ball and all these nerves and butterflies would just jostle together and send my heart beating off the roof! It was THAT strong. I dont have the movie, so when I went home I found it online and watched it a whopping 13 times that week. It's one of the greatest movies I've ever seen. Truly is.
The Magic of Ordinary Days- ONE OF MY ALL TIME FAVES! I say its at tie with Pride and Prejudice. This isnt that well known, but its SOOOO good. I cant even beguin to tell you. I watched it in February on CBS during the Hallmark Hall of Fame period where'd they show a movie every Saturday for the month of Feb. and I wasnt really expecting anything that good to come one. BOY WAS I WRONG! This movie was seriously amazing. Maybe you may not think so, but I sure did. It was exactlyyy my kind of movie. What its about is a girl name Livy who gets preggers and her dad sends her off to a small town in coronado to get married to Ray Singleton who's kind of awkward but superrr adorable and you see through out the movie how their relationship progress and ahhhh, so good. Its based in the 1940's btw. I can rewatch that movie over and over again. Another good one from Hallmark is the movie "Front of the Class". Dont get me started on that one. ;)

So there you have it! Five random facts :)

Journal Entry: 3

Today was a pretty crappy day.
Early in the morning, I checked to see any updates for the winners of Elizabeth Scott's contest, and I didnt win. Thats not what made my day crappy, if youre wondering. I guess I was disappointed, but hey, we recover from disappointment, right? But anyway, second period was pretty funny. My teacher told us he would be calling us up to check our Journal Entries for Catcher in the Rye, and for some odd reason, he called me up first. He usually does it by alphabetical order, and my last name starts with an L. so I thought it was strange, but no one seemed to notice. So when I come up there, hes on his computer clicking something and then musics starts playing. I didnt think much of it, and he was taking an awful amount of time checking my papers then he usually does. I even think he actually read an entry. But I finallllly figured out that he was stalling for the songs chorus, which was "Hands, touching hands, reaching out
Touching me, touching you
Oh, sweet Caroline
Good times never seem so good
I've been inclined to believe it never would"
Ha. Not a lot of people noticed at first but I certainly did because he was talking to me about this song the other day. My teacher, if you're wondering, is super hilarious. He reminds me of Conan O Brian- humor wise. There was this one time our VP came in our class room to talk about the CHASEE test, and she said that there would be prizes for the people who did SUPER excellent, and one of those prizes insisted of a hundred bucks. And then Mr. Norton raises his hand and says, "Oh, she forgot to tell you the greatest prize of all- you'll also receive an autographed picture of me." We all just were laughing hysterically.
Anyways, when the "Sweet Caroline" verse came on again, he said, "Thanks, CAROLINE" and then everyone finally understood and were all laughing and I was kind of embarrassed but I found it pretty funny too.
And now on to the worst part of my day.
My P.E teacher of last semester gave me a C in P.E, which balanced out to a B on my report card because I originally had 2 A's coming from the time before I had P.E class because I did golf as a sport. Anyways, my sister was very upset I had a B, because honestly, thats quite pathetic. No worries if you think so too. If anything, I completely agree. But the thing is, I dont deserve a C. If anything, I deserve a B- at the very least. Definitely not a C. And what makes me more C is that he gave me a freakin E for citizen ship. How in the world does that work out??
So my sister called him and then today in P.E he pulled me out of my new class (i dont have him as a teacher anymore) and he was discussing to my why I got a C and asked for MY input, so I of course stood by my thoughts and told him I felt like I deserved a B- at the absolute very least. Certainly not a C. And then he told me how I and my friends in the class (Golf Buddies: Reeanna, Eanna, and Antonielle) dont try in Ultimate Frisbee and how we did nothing in the weight room. And I told him that we didnt enjoy Ultimate Frisbee at all, yet we still did participate. If anything, I understand the Ultimate Frisbee part, BUT WE ONLY PLAYED THREE TIMES OUT OF THE THREE MONTHS WE WERE IN THAT CLASS!! He cant base off our grade in that particular sport. And how we did do things in the weight room. We jump roped. And we'd do Dumb Bells, and the ab machine, and even sit ups. Sure, this routine was repetitive, but its doing something rather than doing nothing. And we'd even go up to the soccer field every day to take attendance for him. When I pointed that out to him, he said "You wanna know why I asked you guys to do that?"
And I already knew the answer. I really did. "To make use of our time by doing you a favor?" And he just nodded his head. Really. This frustrates me. And when I told him I thought he didnt take this class seriously because he'd come out twenty minutes out the locker room than we did, he told me his excuse that was pointless to me. It really was a huge waste of my time. And when I asked him about my stupid citizenship grade he told me he liked me as a person but hes not going to base my behavior on my actual grade. OMIGOODNESS, it just doesn't make sense. I mean, he has a point, but the thing is- I did all the standards that should be good enough to reach above average. We ran the mile in standard time. Which is 6 laps in fifteen minutes. We followed the rules, did what we were supposed to do, and I pointed this out to him and he just calmly would answer back and that really just pissed me off. And the stupidly sensitive person I can be came out and I could feel my voice wavering and then I began to cry. My eyes were stinging like crazy and as much as I tried to stop I couldn't. And he just stood there all quiet and I finally gathered myself together and told him I had to get dressed and that if he would like to discuss this any further than do so with my sister. And I just left. I feel super duper stupid for crying, that part really wasnt needed. But sometimes, my emotions get the best of me. I feel ESPECIALLY bad for Reeanna because him giving her a C averaging out to a B ruined her 4.0. I was upset for her when she told me. Im just upset all together. But Im a strong girl and know that Ill get past this. Sometimes, its best to forget and just try again, although I tend to avoid that guide line. Im very stubborn, but in the end, I learn from it.
And then I WAS going to talk to Dexter boy. Theres this guy at the bus stop whom goes to my school that looks EXACTLY like Michael C. Hall just with tanner skin, and I really wanna tell him that, because I LOVEEEE Dexter (the Showtime show) but I looked toi bad of a mess to even be talking. My day ended pretty bad, so hopefully I can go to the gym and just run it off. Oh! And you guys know how I love to add a pic for all my posts, so heres my new book shelf! On the tope is where I keep my YA novels or what you could call chick-flick novels. And you guys have no idea how much I cherish my Sarah Dessen collection. NO idea. Sure, I dont have ALLL her books, but I do have seven out of the nine. I let my friend borrow Someone Like You though (How to Deal, so That Summer is combined) but I keep it first on top, right next to my bedside :) I treasure my Sarah Dessen collection and cant wait for my collection to be fulfilled. And the ones beside that particular collection are just all sorts of different books I have. Towards the end of the first shelf though are some auto-biography books that I couldn't stop reading once I had the book in my hands. So any book on my top shelf is what I HIGHLY recommend, except for the ones at the VERY end. Ive yet to read those ones. And on the second shelf are just books I know Im going to have to read next year, and some other ones I havent read as well. My top shelf really is just like, my main collection. And on the VERY top of my shelf is everything I need right before I go to bed. A lamp, for if Im reading a book and dont wanna get up to turn the light on, perfumes for the morning, germ x, and a basket of miscellaneous things. Well, thanks for reading guys if you did read!

Bloom by Elizabeth Scott

Alright, so Ill start off by saying this: In eigth grade, my passion for books sky rocketed (actually, it started in seventh grade, but I was going through a baseball book only phase) and I was just madly on the hunt for the best YA novels.
I discovered many books, in fact. Like Just Listen by Sarah Dessen, Cindy Ella by Robin Palmer,Lucky T by Kate Brian,then all of Sarah Dessen's remaining novels I had yet to of read, and then along came Bloom by Elizabeth Scott. Now Im not gonna RUIN anything for you guys who are reading, but when you read a lineup with the perfect or close-to-perfect kind of books, you expect that nice long streak to keep on going. For some reason though, after reading "Bloom", I was extremley upset. I even lent it to my friend so she could give me her own oppinion on how she felt about the book, and she ended up telling me she really liked it.
Okay, so this is where the immature part comes... I emailed the author, Elizabeth, about how much I didnt like the book and was really upset with how the story played out. She never responded to me, and I really didnt expect it either.
Alright, so last year, I was cleaning up my room when I found "Bloom" and I wasnt reading a book at the moment and decided to read it again. OH MY GOODNESS DID I LOVE IT! Seriously, this book has a twist that you somewhat expect, somewhat dont, which makes it all the more fun to read. I feel incredulous at the fact that I dared say I didnt like it, because words will never explain how good of a book this is.
In "Bloom" Lauren tells her story of being the one with the perfect boyfriend, perfect friendships, and overall a perfect life. But shes not satisfied with it. If anything, her life seems forgettable.
In walks Evan Kirkland, the boy she shared her childhood with, now seeming to be more secrative and silent as he unexpectedly offers rides to Lauren. Suddenly, Lauren realizes this rush she has, a rush she's never experienced.
In this novel written by the amazing Elizabeth Scott- OH YEAH! I forgot to say I emailed her again telling her I reread the book and absoltley loved it, and she told me that she was really happy I gave it a second chance. Well, so am I :) Anyways, in this novel written by Elizabeth Scott, you will witness the true growth of an unsteady relationship. Feelings overcome reality, and soon, reality is dealt to face with. How Lauren handles all these mind consuming things is for you to find out.
I cant reccomend this book enough. Just to get a bit specific, I felt like the twist in this book is a nice change from all the other YA novels Im used too. Perfection once was key from me, however, this book is perfection in its own category. For me, I admired every single flaw, which really makes the book that much more unique and exciting then others. You will be hooked from start to finish- or like me, for eternity. Hmm, that sounded REALLY corny. But I dont know, I find myself rereading "Bloom" ALOT! Haha, I hope you guys check this book out and tell me your thoughts :) Thanks for reading!
-Caroline

Journal Entry: 2

Hmm, so I haven't done an entry journal in a month. I guess I should, although I REALLY need to start on my homework...
Anyways, I guess I can talk about a book Im writing. To be honest, I have NO absolute idea where I'm going with this, actually, I do, but I dont know if Im willing to take such a turn Ive never pictured myself doing. All stories have a twist-they can never be perfect is what I realized. That's why when I was younger I was DETERMINED to create a novel with the perfect story, but I realized, no one would want to read that (well, maybe I would, but thats just me against millions of fans who prefer more depth in a YA novel)Hmm, maybe I can post up a paragraph on here... when I think out my story and when it gets a bit more clearer, Ill do that :)
Okay, on to the subject of school... same as always. Quite boring and tiring, BUT, the last few days Ive actually been reading my world history book, and I found the chapter REALLLLY interesting! It was really just about World War 1 and the controversy of Europe and how the Americans got involved and for some reason it was SO intriguing! Tomorrow, we have a test about that section. Dont wanna sound cocky or anything, but Im feeling pretty confident. Haha, watch me fail since I just said that ;)
Oh! And moving back to the subject of my story, Im really focusing on two best friends. Im gonna be honest, Me+Bestfriend= WRONG. I can not, and I repeat NOT keep a best friend to save my life. I dont even know if my current "best friend" is still my best friend! We hardly talk, mainly because I dont really vent to her the way she does to me, but hey, we're different. Needless to say, i think we both dont balance each other quite well. But that's ok, I never really minded when previous best friends and I faded majorly. Actually, once, in seventh grade, cause her and I were friends since Elementary, but Im just glad we're good friends to this day and our families are still close. But anyhow, the reason why I want to focus my story on two best friends is because I want to create a character as the main characters best friend, just so I can express in words camouflaged in a story of the best friend I never really had. I want that character to be someone where readers go, I wish I had a friend like that- because I certainly have had that happen to me all the time.
Ive always imagined what it feels like to have a best friend where you spend days shopping together and staying up till 2 am talking about random things, sleepovers, all that good stuff. And the thing is- I have experienced that- and I wish the friendship can stay as strong when you first became best friends. But for me, it just doesn't. Simple as that.
Anyways, Ill stop babbling about that. People must think Im weird anyways.
So moving on... Im currently re-reading Catcher in the Rye for my English class. I really like that book. I admire Holden's personality. I feel like he's an authentic teenager, basically, I feel like hes not fake. With his character, what you see is what you get. He doesn't play games. He has a very straight forward, upfront personality, and I really admire that for some reason. Im actually surprised that I liked the book, since Im so into chick-flick novels.
Well, I should go start on some journal entries I have to do for Catcher in the Rye. Hopefully Ill post another journal up soon.
G'night!
-Caroline