Thirty, flirty, and thriving. That's what I always think about when I think of the age '30'. It seems so far away from now, as I'm still currently a senior in high school who is just on the brink of graduating. But everyday, without fail, I can't help but think what my life will be like in five, ten, twenty years from now. Am I going to be that lonely woman surrounding herself with a million cats? Well, that's automatically out since I'm allergic, but you get the picture. Will I be dead broke living in the middle of no where, strangely content, or will I be that successful, independent woman who still craves happiness? I know what I want, which is, yes, to be successful, but to also be happy. I don't think that's too much to ask for, I just need to work extremely hard. Right now, my life could be a lot better, but do I have any right to complain? I know a lot of people emphasize how screwed up their life is, and it's something I can relate to too, because my life IS difficult. Sometimes I wonder if I'll ever be able to escape it. But I know deep down that there are far worse situations that other people are in. So I can't have that perspective on life and make myself a pity party, because honestly, it's not fair. I just need to continue working hard and do everything I can in my power to become that successful individual I constantly challenge myself to become. It's going to take a lot of time, patience, and determination, but I'm willing to put in everything I possibly to gain what I want. Because it is attainable. Never let anyone tell you otherwise.
Sorry, I just had to vent a bit on that. Like I said, I'm going through a difficult stage in my life, but I keep on reminding myself that if I just continue chasing after my dreams (as cliche as it sounds), I can give myself that life I've always wanted. I can be that independent woman I've always wished to become. I can gain the respect of my family members and friends who have regardless always believed in me and wanted nothing more then to see me succeed. I just want my dream, and I'm never going to stop until I get it.
How this relates to the title of the post, I suppose you're wondering? Well, for those who don't know, I plan on pursuing a career in the broadcast journalism industry. More specifically, I want to become a news anchor. There's just something so appealing to me about the job that makes me understand and want it. Perhaps it's the inner news junkie I am, as I am currently the news editor for my high school newspaper, or maybe it's the fact that I watch the news nearly every night because I feel entitled to be informed about the important events that are happening in the community. I want to be that person informing my viewers about such events that can effect-maybe even change- our lives. Ever since my freshman year of high school, I knew it was what I wanted to do. And I'm doing it. I've already been accepted into college, and am scheduled to enroll in communication courses focused on broadcast journalism/liberal arts.
By the age of thirty, I'm hoping to accomplish this. I hope to have not only my career in full swing, but also my life outside of my job. I want what nearly every girl wants. I want the caring, passionate husband who will go through all lengths to look after his family. I want the children who drive me insane but still love with all of my heart by the end of the day. I want the entire nine yards, settled, stable, and loved. I can't see myself any other way by that age, and if for some reason my life is not how I'm setting it up to be, there better only be one reason. And that's because I didn't get to live, but lets just hope that's out of the equation.
Okay, joking aside, I've been watching all these adoption stories from the Rivers of Hope Foundation and how these wonderful and amazing individuals and couples have made an addition(s) to their lives by adopting a child in need. It truly did touch my heart. All of these innocent kids want nothing but a loving family who can provide them with what their biological parents never could. I want the ability to do that. I have officially decided that by the age of thirty, as long as I am in the position to care for another person, I will adopt a child. I don't care if I'm married, am able to have kids or not, already have kids, or if anyone I love is against it, I just want to be able to give that special child a new home full of love and joy. Hell, I'm still in high school yet already want this. It's just that I could feel the love radiating from these families who were able to pour their love and kindness into the unfortunate life of a child, and turn it around for the absolute best. It's incredibly beautiful to me, almost ethereal how much love one could give. I saw this woman, a single mother, who adopted three children in an addition to the three biological children she had. She is an inspiration, and I respect her more than she could ever imagine. I want the ability to do such, because changing someone's life so drastically and forever creating it with yours, I bet there is no better feeling. And I'm not leaving this earth until I am able to experience this feeling at least once. I'm hoping that by that time, I'll already have children of my own, so they can join me on the journey of offering love, patience, and most importantly, a family, to those who search everyday for what people like myself are willing to give.
-Caroline
